Okay, so I am horrible about keeping up with this blog stuff. We are home, and I am trying to adjust to life with 2 toddlers...questions - how do I keep up with laundry? Didn't I just sweep the floors 5 minutes ago? Have you finished your math YET? Um, where is Abby? When did she learn to climb the stairs so fast? Good grief, is it 10AM already, and I am still not dressed - UGH. Slowly, we are adjusting. The kids love Abby to death - even when she scratches their faces. She has so much spunk and life - it is absolutely amazing.
The Lord has been using this time, as well as the time on our trip home when Maggie was so gravely ill, to sanctify me. Let me just say, that I never realized how difficult sanctification can be. "How much does this have to hurt, Lord?" was what I kept asking for a while...I am slowly realizing that there are lessons that apparently I am having to learn over and over again. For example, His ways are not my ways. My "plans" must be His "plans" or they are going to get changed. I am learning how to love when the one that I am trying to show love to does not want to be loved, held, or kissed...she just wants to lay on the floor and tantrum. The Lord used that to remind me of all the times that I acted un-lovable, and yet, He loved me anyway. So, all in all, this adoption process has been amazing, and such a joy that I wouldn't trade it for anything.
The Lord has been using this time, as well as the time on our trip home when Maggie was so gravely ill, to sanctify me. Let me just say, that I never realized how difficult sanctification can be. "How much does this have to hurt, Lord?" was what I kept asking for a while...I am slowly realizing that there are lessons that apparently I am having to learn over and over again. For example, His ways are not my ways. My "plans" must be His "plans" or they are going to get changed. I am learning how to love when the one that I am trying to show love to does not want to be loved, held, or kissed...she just wants to lay on the floor and tantrum. The Lord used that to remind me of all the times that I acted un-lovable, and yet, He loved me anyway. So, all in all, this adoption process has been amazing, and such a joy that I wouldn't trade it for anything.
I've got you beat, was in my PJ's till 12 the other day--and I don't even have my new kid home yet=). I was making travel arrangements, not being lazy. Janet
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